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HawksRock’s Personality Type

Posted in FYI with tags , , on January 23, 2009 by hawksrock

“ISTJs are often called inspectors. They have a keen sense of right and wrong, especially in their area of interest and/or responsibility. They are noted for devotion to duty. Punctuality is a watchword of the ISTJ. The secretary, clerk, or business(wo)man by whom others set their clocks is likely to be an ISTJ.”
– ISTJ Profile (TypeLogic)

“ISTJs are very loyal, faithful, and dependable. They place great importance on honesty and integrity. They are “good citizens” who can be depended on to do the right thing for their families and communities. While they generally take things very seriously, they also usually have an offbeat sense of humor and can be a lot of fun – especially at family or work-related gatherings.”
– Portrait of an ISTJ (The Personality Page)

“…characterized by decisiveness in practical affairs, are the guardians of institutions, and if only one adjective could be selected, “super dependable” would best describe them.”
– The Portrait of the Inspector Guardian (Keirsey)

“…private, does not appreciate strangeness, not adventurous, not spontaneous, follows the rules…”
– Jung Type Descriptions (ISTJ) (

“At work, ISTJs get things done on a timely basis. They honor deadlines, and they believe in thoroughness. A half-finished job is not a job well done. They established procedures and schedules, and are uncomfortable with those who do not do the same. ISTJs put duty before pleasure. As long as they can fulfill their responsibilities, they feel useful and thereby satisfied. Their work does not have to be fun, but it has to count toward something productive. ISTJs believe that vacations are something that one takes only when work has been accomplished; thus, at times they do not take vacations even when they could and should.”
– ISTJ – The Reliant (Lifexplore)

ISTJs are often happy with the following jobs which tend to match well with the Examiner/Protector personality.

  • Accountant
  • Administrator
  • Auditor
  • Computer Programmer
  • Computer Specialist
  • Dentist
  • Detective
  • Doctor
  • Electrician
  • Executive
  • Financial Officer
  • Judge
  • Lawyer/Attorney
  • Librarian
  • Manager
  • Marketer
  • Math Teacher
  • Mechanical Engineer
  • Military Leader
  • Police
  • Scientist
  • Steelworker
  • Systems Analyst
  • Technical Specialist
  • Technician

16 Things about Hawks

Posted in challenge/meme, FYI, Introduction(s), Real Life with tags , , on January 14, 2009 by hawksrock

1)  I have travelled to 27 countries to date:  USA, Canada, Mexico, Costa Rica, Guatemala, Nicaragua, Honduras, Dominican Republic, Trinidad & Tobago, Panama, El Salvador, Chile, Peru, Ecuador, Colombia, UK, France, Italy, Spain, Portugal, Greece, Austria, Switzerland, Germany, Belgium, Czech Rep, Hungary.  (If Vatican City counts then 28 )

2)  I am the oldest of 7 siblings, and I am still very close to all of them.   Ironically, I may be closest to the youngest who is 18 years younger.

3)  I am extremely competitive at anything and everything that can be measured.

4)  I have learned the hard way that money does not buy you happiness.

5)  I am drawn to people who have a passion for living and doing no matter how odd their hobby or interests.

6)  I started working at the age of 12 mowing lawns, and have been working ever since.

7) My father put me to work in a beef-packing plant at the age of 18 to “learn the value of my education.”

8)  I wrote a senior thesis on the African-American influx into Kansas following the Civil War – a group that was known as the Exodusters.

9)  I was a history major in college even though I can never remember names or dates, but I really love good stories and the best stories are often real.

10)  I have a habit of getting really excited about something for a while, but once I figure it out I get bored and never do it again.

11)  I would say the adjectives most often attributed to me by others are probably things like stubborn and/or cocky.

12)  I am typically optimistic, and I always try to put a positive spin on things, but at times it is impossible, and those times are very depressing.

13)  I try to laugh and joke and goof around as much as possible, because humor is one of my favorite things.

14)  My toes are double jointed (so I can pick things up quite easily with them) and I had 6 wisdom teeth instead of four, so by many standards I am an evolutionary regression.

15)  My parents moved a lot when I was growing up as my dad was promoted through different positions.   At one point in my life, I was in 6 different schools in 5 years.

16)  I have a downright fetish for ice-cream.   Jell doesn’t seem to understand the compulsive need to go get a chocolate milkshake even though it is below freezing outside.

Our Story Part 4 – The first month

Posted in Our Story with tags , , on January 11, 2009 by hawksrock

HawksRock Gunawan: Heya…  you ready to roll?
JellyBean Madison: yup yup
HawksRock Gunawan: Okay so in the last installment we basically left off at us very first starting to date, and you whoring it up…   :p
JellyBean Madison: WHAT!?! Me? Whoring it up? Mayhaps I need to re-read it… again
HawksRock Gunawan: I mean the impact of our natural pent up chemistry…  on that first date.
JellyBean Madison: oh okay, yuh… apparently I have *no* willpower
HawksRock Gunawan: lol, so let’s see what we can remember about that first year of dating.    I think my very first memory is of us sitting together at Tringo on pillows of every persuasion as I was hosting at Bad Azz.

JellyBean Madison: yup… I had/have them labeled in my invey Tringo Pillow 1, 2, 3. They matched every mood I could possibly have.
JellyBean Madison: I also remmy us getting it on at every place we shouldn’t have via IM – Blogger Meetings, Tringo, etc
HawksRock Gunawan: you mean moods, or level of horniness?
JellyBean Madison: exactly!
HawksRock Gunawan: yeah, poor Dreamer was really not getting our best performances at many of those late night tringo outings.
JellyBean Madison: lmao – nope
JellyBean Madison: nor were the other bloggers getting our full attention
HawksRock Gunawan: I remember that I had thought I had this great idea on a house that I really liked with a ton of prims, and I had negotiated down the rent by prepaying for 26 weeks, but I was only like 10 weeks into it, and you were riding my ass about moving in with you.
HawksRock Gunawan: So luckily I was able to talk Joker into subleasing it for next to nothing, just to give me an excuse to move out.
JellyBean Madison: well yah… the house I helped you find, but it just made more sense for us to share a place together.
HawksRock Gunawan: Yup, and I remember us going into the huge ass land acquisition phase, where we ended up owning like half of Wildmutt and we had 3 houses, a huge garden area, and Tringo place all on the same land.
JellyBean Madison: Well if you remmy I’m very indecisive and you weren’t much help, plus all our houses served a purpose. 🙂
HawksRock Gunawan: Yes they did, and we also had the whole partnering discussion, because for me I wasn’t a fan of partnering immediately.    I wanted it to mean something, so we were dating but not actually showing in the partner box right away.
JellyBean Madison: yup. Frustrating as hell to me too. I wanted to publicly pee on your leg & have you in my box right away. I’m so glad we waited though, you are quite the romantic type & it was super special.
HawksRock Gunawan: Yeah, well to me (and I know it is different for everybody) but partnering was stronger to me than just dating.   I wanted it to be tied to a proposal, and a recognition of the fact we were going to become married in SL.   So it made sense to me to send it with the proposal.   😉

JellyBean Madison: mhm… I had never had anyone virtually or otherwise take so much time to make a moment so special
HawksRock Gunawan: So then came the whole thing about the proposal and how to pull that off.    I knew that Peter could make an awesome ring, but unfortunately this was right around the time that he quit playing SL and wasn’t ever online.    So luckily Aka came through for me and helped to make real the vision I had for a ring.
HawksRock Gunawan: Somehow I had pulled together the idea that it had to be silver not gold, have a pink stone (for obvious reasons), and also incorporate black since that is your predominant color you dress in.
HawksRock Gunawan: It was a little risky pulling her into it, because I really didn’t know if she could keep it secret from you or not.
JellyBean Madison: the fact that you actually managed (on more than one occasion) to get her to keep a secret from *me* was an amazing feat in itself
HawksRock Gunawan: You have NO idea the level of subterfuge we had to come up with…     there were many times when you were aware that I was talking to her, and we had to cover it up.   Especially the time you caught up particling as we passed versions back and forth.
JellyBean Madison: mhm. Sneaky sneaky! I have to admit that I did know something was up, but with the both of you there was never any telling of what *it* was.
HawksRock Gunawan: yup yup
HawksRock Gunawan: So then I planned and set up and built (haha) a set next to our garden from which I proposed, and *drum roll please* you accepted.
HawksRock Gunawan: Let’s see we started on 5/5/07 and then I proposed on 6/2/07 so about a month later.
JellyBean Madison: as if you had any doubt that I’d say yes. Cheese moment here but I fell in love with you beyond what I prob should have earlier than that 🙂
HawksRock Gunawan: awwww, and the same for me.   But I was still a little stressed pulling that together and off…   😉
JellyBean Madison: I bet… but you did it great!
HawksRock Gunawan: So then the interesting phase begins.    We had originally planned to have a longer time between the proposal and the wedding.   We were shooting to have about a month complete with Bachelor/ette parties and elaborate sets and yada yada yada…
HawksRock Gunawan: BUT

HawksRock Gunawan: then the news came through that your-soon-to-be-ex was coming home earlier than you had thought, and you felt it would be better if the wedding and everything was knocked out before his arrival.    So everything went into major rush mode.

JellyBean Madison: Yup! Yah, he was very smothering, to say the least, even though we both knew it was over, he wanted to feel in control
HawksRock Gunawan: Yes, so basically we went from having a month to having less than a week to pull everything together.
HawksRock Gunawan: We wanted to have a relatively traditional big beautiful type wedding with all our friends present.

JellyBean Madison: I think we even had to switch the invitations too, didn’t we? We had one date & had to edit to the new closer one
HawksRock Gunawan: Yes, well I think that what I remember is that we thought we were going to have a little more than a week, but he actually ended up coming even 2 days sooner than what we had thought, so we pulled it up even more at that point, after we had sent out the invites.
JellyBean Madison: yup
HawksRock Gunawan: Otherwise, we were worried he would create a scene or else cause you a lot of grief… and we for sure didn’t want to disrupt the honeymoon festivities either.   😉
HawksRock Gunawan: so things went into full on rush mode…   which for you works great, but for me who likes to plan things out and know exactly what is gonna happen, was causing me a little extra nerves.
JellyBean Madison: most def… The honeymoon! Wooo! That goes down in history as one of the bestest weeks EVA’r. We even put that off too, until he left again, remmy?
HawksRock Gunawan: haha, i forgot about that… actually.    We did put that off didn’t we.
JellyBean Madison: yup
HawksRock Gunawan: backing up though, the wedding went mostly fine other than the crashing that happened over and over and over again.   I remember I crashed three times, we were losing wedding party members, and even you crashed at least once.   But I guess that is just part of the “experience.”
HawksRock Gunawan: We also had the whole wedding vow dilemma, where we both wanted to write ours from scratch, but you took til the very last day to get yours done.
JellyBean Madison: Oh and the noob that ghosted at the altar for some & the perma-laugh on my face for others. LOL
JellyBean Madison: I’m good under pressa’
HawksRock Gunawan: Yup, I forgot about the ghosted noob who showed up in some of the pics
HawksRock Gunawan: Then we had the party, and all the fun began in earnest.

2nd Rez Day – Retrospective

Posted in Observations, SecondLife®, Uncategorized with tags , , , , on December 16, 2008 by hawksrock

So I have this big tradition of sitting down and writing a reflective post on my rez day to look back and share all my learnings with those younger than myself so hopefully they won’t hafta learn the hard way like I did.   Okay, yeah so I totally just BS’ed that line, and I have only had one other rez day so it isn’t like a long-standing tradition and all, but whatever!

It just feels like I should say something since I did last year here.   Since I did a top 25 list last year, let’s see if I have learned 10 more this year.


1)  Being a premium member doesn’t really enhance your experience any unless you are a land baron.

2)  It is all about the relationships.   Period.  I get more excited about a great convo with friends, than the coolest build in the entire metaverse.

3)  Sometimes it is better to sit a day on a heated post than to post it, but you will get more traffic and honesty if you just hit the go button.

4)  Plurk is quickly becoming my new SL.   If we started streaming music while plurking as DJ’s it would meet about 80% of my satisfaction I get from SL.

5)  Don’t be afraid to cut emo’s from your list rather than just watching them cut themselves and tell you every little detail of it.   It gets pretty old and predictable fast.

6)  Not only do a lot of dudes play ugly women AV’s and think they are hiding it (FAIL)  but also women play hot male AV’s and hide it well (DOH!).

7)  If you start a relationship with someone’s alt.   They are gonna cheat on you within the year.

8)  If you make something you enjoy into work, then you aren’t going to enjoy it anymore.

9)  A long conversation over a slow dance is ten times more meaningful than over IM or while standing around.

10) It is possible to find RL love in SL, and to make it work.   🙂

Honey I’m Home!

Posted in Introduction(s), SecondLife® with tags , , , , on December 13, 2008 by hawksrock

I seem to be going through a bit of a blog-dentity crisis atm.   I am having a hard time finding the exact right fit, that is both comfy to wear and stylish.   It isn’t like I have written for a million blogs, but I first began blogging on Verbal Stew, then Jell and I moved over to this site at FreeState.  After a few months I jumped on Wrath’s idea of forming a blog with Alex and Wrath which became Are We Not Men.   AWNM was going strong until my two compadres sort of disappeared, and left me with the reigns.   I was able to keep things moving along, but I didn’t feel like I was posting often enough.

With the ending of Mean Girls, I had the idea of trying to bring the best of AWNM together with MG, and everybody liked that idea, so The Rev was formed.   My thinking being that with a larger pool of writers, we wouldn’t have to post as often individually, but still provide good content on a regular basis.   I have had sort of an odd relationship with The Rev.   We pulled together a great pool of SL bloggers, and we were having success as measured by the typical indicators of traffic, comments, feedback, etc.     We had great posts, a good mix, but for some reason it just never quite felt comfortable.   Am I blogging too much, not enough, is everyone pulling their weight, etc etc etc.  Do we kick x person for not blogging, but then allow y person a hiatus?   It was beginning to feel a little too much like work, and I tend to run from work during my entertainment time.   🙂

So in the end as many of these things happen, I am coming back home to write with Jell, which is how I began my blogging career in the first place.   The two of us are going to focus our efforts on FreeState and try to get back to doing some of the old funner things (like JH reports) as well as several new ideas that we have been discussing.   My guess is that we will be writing more than we were on the Rev, but if we take on longer projects like JH reports, those tend to suck up a lot of time.

I apologize for bouncing around on everybody so much for a while, but if you want to follow the Jell and Hawks show, then this is the place to be!   We are done jumping around, and we are hanging the drapes here.   I am pretty excited about some stuff we are discussing, so I am looking forward to some upcoming things we can share with you.   If there is anything you want an opinion or discussion of, then feel free to send it to us.   If you can count on anything from us, it is that we will have an opinion!   🙂

Where didja gooooooo?

Posted in Real Life, SecondLife® with tags , , , on September 17, 2008 by ♥JellyBean♥

Jinkies! Can you remmy when Hawks & I use to blog regularly over here? I almost can’t.  Anyroo, some of you know that I am a RL web designer now & I spend 8 hours a day staring, almost creatively, at a computer screen. The last thing I want to do when I get home is think at my computer. So that’s why I’ve been really lacking over here.

I have done a couple blog posts over at the newest venture, The Revolution (The Rev, for short) on topics that inspired me enough to put some real thought into.

[Inserts Shameless Plug here]

I wish my lawn was emo so it would cut itself… about Emo spewing in my SL im windows & plurk


The sun sets slowly on our lonely… about mixing RL with your SL in re’ship terms.

I’m excited, reallllly excited about the Rev and love having the opportunity to blog with some awesome people that I never thought I’d have the chance to. The hope is that the Rev will provide readers with the honest wholesome goodness without the fluff that you just can’t get from other blogs out there.

Main point is, if you’re looking for us – chances are you will find our words over there. 🙂

Missed Calling?

Posted in Observations, Real Life with tags , , , on August 24, 2008 by hawksrock

I really think that after spending the last two days watching all variety of street performers at the Lawrence Buskerfest – from jugglers to firebreathers, from people who can catch a bowling ball on their cheek to magicians, from people who can play 12 instruments and sing at the same time to guys who can swallow swords, that I really wasted a good portion of my life doing the “right thing.” I was killing time getting a couple of degrees in college, and working on getting ahead in the rat race when I totally should have been practicing every day to learn some skill that no one else in the world would think of even trying, let alone being able to accomplish without months of hard practice.

I really have to respect these individuals who said to hell with conventional thinking, I am going to get together with my buddy and put together an act whereby I will juggle machetes while standing on my friends abdomen while he does a gymnastic back bend. These people don’t make a lot of money, but they live each day to the fullest doing exactly what makes them happy. They aren’t trapped by bureaucracy, budgets, or living life in a gray cubicled maze. Instead, they are out there putting on a show anywhere that people will gather to watch.

It takes more than just an unusual talent, but an ability to engage the audience. You have to draw them in with your pithy one-liners and ability to pick interactive kids out of the audience. You have to joke, cajole, heckle, and go with the flow. I would like to just take a moment and say thank you to those out there who have made it their life calling to buck the system, and to truly live each day to the fullest. I will try to take your example, and look for something outstanding that I too can do each and every day. I will engage the audience, and remember that you gotta have fun.