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First Scupltie

Posted in Randomness with tags , , , on August 23, 2009 by ♥JellyBean♥

This was my first sculptie made 2 years ago using plop. It was also my last sculptie. LOL

JellyBean Madison: you really hate my flower?
HawksRock Gunawan: no, honestly I like it on the wall
HawksRock Gunawan: i was just messing with you
JellyBean Madison: uhuh
HawksRock Gunawan: i think it is really cool that you made it, and honestly it does sorta fit the decor
HawksRock Gunawan: i think i liked it better a lil smaller, but I can always edit it later when you aren’t on
JellyBean Madison: :/


Tank Girl

Posted in JH Productions (Videos) with tags , , , , , on June 15, 2009 by hawksrock

So as long as I have known Jell she has wanted to make some sort of Tank Girl machinima.   She had all the props, the look, even several alts already decked out for all the lead roles.   It just never quite came together… until….    this past month.

We have always kicked around doing Tank Girl, but we knew we wanted to try and make it something bigger and badder than our normal videos which set a storyline to a song.   For this one we wanted voice, and actors, and explosions and all that jazz.   I have never messed much with sound editing, and I found that it is quite a chore to shoot a battle scene by layering in all the different guns, explosions, reloads, and such at the right time.

In the end, we want to thank all the people who helped this vid come together.   In particular, Miike for always being willing to come out on a moment’s notice to shoot or reshoot a scene.   We also want to thank Flix Saiman for teaching us how to blow up an outhouse. Overall, I am pretty happy with the results.   Most of all we learned a lot about sound editing, and even one scene which had stop motion animation in it.  These are all new tools for the arsenal, which we will be able to use in future JH productions.

For now, enjoy the show…

Need New Dramz…

Posted in Observations with tags , on January 20, 2009 by ♥JellyBean♥

I don’t get “out” inworld much because well… I don’t log inworld much. Tonight however my HawksRock had to work late, and technically I *should* be in bed but due to crazy ass circumstances, here I am awaiting his phone call.

Earlier I decided I’d kill some time and hang in SL. Whatever shall I do? Aka is playing WoW with Peter, Rosie is at work, Hawks isn’t available and well… I pretty much hate everyone else. I kid! I kid! No srsly, I like very few of you. I say that with complete and tote love.

Anyways, everywhere I went, it was that stupid blogger dramz, you know the crazy one that shall not be named? Yuh, her. Have we hit a drama drought? That’s all we got? Really? Her and content theft? C’mon people can you please create a juicy scandal of some sort? I’m bored and apparently there is no reason to log in anymore.

Tringo has all but become extinct except in the lil corner of the SLworld that Hawks & I live on, fashion has seen better days, grid is pretty shitactular as of late, and all you can go on about is how she keeps going on about everyone else. Crazy is as crazy does people! You know how you truly make crazy attention seeking people go away? You ignore them. TADA! OMG! I’m like magic and stuff.

I’ll expect those TPS reports on my desk Monday morning with some new dramz, kay? Thank you for your cooperation & if you give me good reports, I might not make you come in on Saturday. *wink*

2nd Rez Day – Retrospective

Posted in Observations, SecondLife®, Uncategorized with tags , , , , on December 16, 2008 by hawksrock

So I have this big tradition of sitting down and writing a reflective post on my rez day to look back and share all my learnings with those younger than myself so hopefully they won’t hafta learn the hard way like I did.   Okay, yeah so I totally just BS’ed that line, and I have only had one other rez day so it isn’t like a long-standing tradition and all, but whatever!

It just feels like I should say something since I did last year here.   Since I did a top 25 list last year, let’s see if I have learned 10 more this year.


1)  Being a premium member doesn’t really enhance your experience any unless you are a land baron.

2)  It is all about the relationships.   Period.  I get more excited about a great convo with friends, than the coolest build in the entire metaverse.

3)  Sometimes it is better to sit a day on a heated post than to post it, but you will get more traffic and honesty if you just hit the go button.

4)  Plurk is quickly becoming my new SL.   If we started streaming music while plurking as DJ’s it would meet about 80% of my satisfaction I get from SL.

5)  Don’t be afraid to cut emo’s from your list rather than just watching them cut themselves and tell you every little detail of it.   It gets pretty old and predictable fast.

6)  Not only do a lot of dudes play ugly women AV’s and think they are hiding it (FAIL)  but also women play hot male AV’s and hide it well (DOH!).

7)  If you start a relationship with someone’s alt.   They are gonna cheat on you within the year.

8)  If you make something you enjoy into work, then you aren’t going to enjoy it anymore.

9)  A long conversation over a slow dance is ten times more meaningful than over IM or while standing around.

10) It is possible to find RL love in SL, and to make it work.   🙂

Who needs a Llama, when you can have a COW!?!

Posted in Observations, SecondLife® with tags , , , , on November 18, 2008 by ♥JellyBean♥

I’m the first to admit that drama entertains me like nothing else. Especially SL and more recently Plurk drama. Ya’ll know this already, right? Yah, I have the shirt. (see pic below). Well I have to admit I get a tickle when I start a fire that wasn’t intentional and I watch it go ablaze! Oopsie!

Let me share this plurk with ya…

JellyBean has decided that the only two normal guys in sl are HawksRock & Burgess. **shakes her head** This is sad.

The back story to this of course wasn’t added and that’s what mayhapsibly caused the ruckus. Let me explain before I go further so mayhaps you can find humor like I did.

As you know Hawks and I have sorta abandoned Free State to work on other projects like WoW leveling, Real Life, Ludo concerts, work, cuddle-fests, and of course the new blog – The SL Revolution. The Rev currently has 9 boomtastic revolutionary bloggers of truth, justice and the SL-way. However we’re lacking some testosterone over there something fierce.

I’ve kinda made it my mission to find male bloggers. Sadly I sort of have a strict criteria… I want male avatars that do not wear make-up, fem clothes, does not have a fem alt that gets more play time than their male, doesn’t know what color to wear that brings out their eyes, knows not to mix patterns and prints, and only blogs fashion. Not at any time, ever did I say that you shouldn’t live SL the way you want to, play it the way you want to or try to dictate anyone’s SLife.

Basically I really want to find what I would define as a RL stereotypical male but in SL that can write eloquently and wear a shirt, any shirt, and possibly shoes. Hey I like a challenge.

Hawks & I were discussing a potential new male writer when it donned on me that Alex and Hawks are the only two male bloggers I know that fit my manly man criteria. Alex is too busy to join the Rev and Hawks is already there. So in making the above statement in plurk by using the word “normal” started a bit of a spark that led to flames that led to this post.

Here’s the rest of the thread that followed:

  • November 17, 2008 at 18:49 KDFrawg There must be more than that!
  • November 17, 2008 at 18:49 myg says Wow if you include Burgess, that *is* sad!
  • November 17, 2008 at 18:50 JellyBean says no KDFrawg. Either they play fem avatars, they’re gay or very uhh metro sexual. Where are the Paul Bunyan manly men?
  • November 17, 2008 at 18:51 JellyBean says LOL
  • November 17, 2008 at 18:52 Willis™ says or they’re emo psychotics! Don’t leave those ones out
  • November 17, 2008 at 18:52 KDFrawg They’re hanging out with oxen…
  • November 17, 2008 at 18:52 Thema you need to meet a few more people, methinks -D but you’re not far off
  • November 17, 2008 at 18:53 Teeg says in SL, the Paul Bunyan guys are probably dressed like Babe, the blue ox.
  • November 17, 2008 at 18:53 AlyshaRenn thinks she should make a manly man in SL just for JellyBean
  • November 17, 2008 at 18:53 JellyBean says lol
  • November 17, 2008 at 18:54 JellyBean says thema show me one guy in SL that can write eloquently, does NOT have a fem av/alt and doesn’t wear chick clothes. -D
  • November 17, 2008 at 18:58 Arbs says I’m surprised you found two -P
  • November 17, 2008 at 18:59 JellyBean says no shit, right!
  • November 17, 2008 at 19:01 HawksRock says there is a real dearth of quality men’s writers out there who don’t turn their blog pink, or spend over 1/2 their time as a female.
  • November 17, 2008 at 19:02 JellyBean says lol
  • November 17, 2008 at 19:08 Bone is not sure whether he should be insulted by this plurk or not.
  • November 17, 2008 at 19:16 JellyBean says let me know what you decide. -P
  • November 17, 2008 at 19:18 Bone will do.
  • November 17, 2008 at 19:22 Baron has only appeared as a woman when SL has ruthed him.
  • November 17, 2008 at 19:23 JellyBean says really Baron? Do you have a female alt? You might be added to my list of 2 -)
  • November 17, 2008 at 19:25 Baron No female alt.
  • November 17, 2008 at 19:26 Baron tries to find decent tasteful masculine clothes, too . . . but that’s not always easy ;-)
  • November 17, 2008 at 19:37 Bone thinks the criteria for being “normal”, as defined by this plurk, is far too restricting.
  • November 17, 2008 at 19:39 Baron is boringnormal
  • November 17, 2008 at 20:06 Kavar doesn’t understand what sexuality has to do with A. being normal or B. Writing- gay does not mean flaming drag queen by default
  • November 17, 2008 at 20:06 JellyBean says lol hey I’m open to normal of other people’s specifications so long as there is manly man in there somewhere.
  • November 17, 2008 at 20:14 Willis™ has a manly man in RL who won’t enter SL… maybe hes worried it’ll demacho him! (unsure)
  • November 17, 2008 at 20:22 Bone There’s not exactly a whole lot macho things to do in SL.
  • November 17, 2008 at 20:23 Bone Except for maybe shooting shit and driving vehicles. Both are done better in other online games.
  • November 17, 2008 at 20:25 JellyBean says Kavar sexuality has a lot to do with it and gayness does not. Say I’m looking for a guy to write like a guy not a chick, then chances are..
  • November 17, 2008 at 20:26 JellyBean says I will need a guy not a chick, right? testosterone and estrogen ARE two diff things
  • November 17, 2008 at 20:34 Chestnut the thing is everyone has a bit of both estrogen and testoterone. So your manly guy has estrogen too. Just sayin
  • November 17, 2008 at 20:37 JellyBean says lol ty Chestnut. Okay so more specific, you can have estrogen but I’d prefer you have considerably more testoterone. -D
  • November 17, 2008 at 20:53 Kavar had I been talking about sex male/female. I would have said sex… I said sexuality referring to being gay, and only because
  • November 17, 2008 at 20:54 Kavar it was reading like a lame sterotype
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:18 JellyBean says Kavar Ah ok, well I appreciate you coming all the way over here to clarify that -) ty
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:21 Rosie attempts to pull everyone’s panties out of a wad…
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:21 JellyBean says hah
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:21 Rosie says where did Jelly say that gay wasn’t normal? Cuz I don’t see it?
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:22 Rosie says what I saw is her saying that she’d like to find a male (guy) man who had a manly male macho perspective…
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:23 Rosie says to blog. As for sexuality… I do believe you, Kavar, brought up sexuality and when Jelly responded to you, she was not talkin about…
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:23 Rosie boinkin, but was using the word in the same manner you were
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:25 KDFrawg What the hell do you want with a “normal” guy, anyway?
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:25 Kavar lol ok.. mayb we aren’t reading the same plurk.. I see jelly say there are two normal guys in sl, KDFrawg says there must be more then that
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:26 Kavar then the responce is .. no KDFrawg. Either they play fem avatars, they’re gay or very uhh metro sexual. Where are the Paul Bunyan manly men?
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:26 Kavar what exactly was that ment to mean?
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:26 JellyBean says lol KDFrawg. “Normal” seems to be a minority word here
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:26 Rosie says lol yea I’m reading it too, but it’s born of sheer frustration… what she should have perhaps said is not that she wants a “normal”
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:26 Rosie says “guy” but a “stereotypical” macho man
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:27 Rosie but then that would mean that she defines Hawks and Alex as macho… and uhhh no. Sorry.
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:29 Bone So the list has gotten smaller!
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:30 Rosie says hell forget it I don’t even know what I’m talking about anymore… lemme just say that we are looking for different perspectives…
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:30 Rosie blog
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:30 Rosie *on the blog
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:30 Bone I still maintain that macho manly men wouldn’t have enough to do in SL to maintain their interest.
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:31 Rosie says well there are chicks
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:31 Rosie what was it in that other plurk?… Think like a guy…. do I have sex with it, play with it, or eat it?
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:32 KDFrawg JellyBean, go forth and write a post in which you define many man, in both RL and SL.
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:32 KDFrawg Sorry, manly men
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:32 Rosie says ok really I gotta go on that note… cuz that just came out totally wrong
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:32 Rosie says bai!
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:33 Shelly hmm..I’ve met quite a few guys that don’t spend half their time as females, write seriously interesting, wonderful stuff and I’ve never seen
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:33 Shelly them in a latex, fishnets or skirts.
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:39 JellyBean says kdfrawg I think I shall take this plurk and create a spin off t.v. show called the Bold and the Beautiful
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:41 KDFrawg o. you mean simultaneously. -)
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:41 KDFrawg and in tights.
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:42 Siobhan says sounds yummy
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:42 Bone feels discriminated because he wore some dresses (with fishnets too) for comedy’s sake. '-(
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:44 JellyBean says lol boner
  • November 17, 2008 at 21:44 JellyBean says Imma stop there lol
  • November 17, 2008 at 22:21 Daila boner you are manly enough for me : )
  • November 17, 2008 at 22:25 Bone Daila to the rescue!
  • November 17, 2008 at 22:44 Winter wonders if he is now somehow less of a man in all your eyes now because he takes himself “un-seriously” enough to have a pink blog …
  • November 17, 2008 at 22:45 Winter … wear fishnets and be enough of a metrosexual to give a shit about how he looks?
  • November 18, 2008 at 01:47 myg says Jelly, you are teh queen of controversy! Way to go! (tongue)
  • November 18, 2008 at 02:02 JohnnyRyall if I were ther I’d be normal…..oh…wait…never mind….
  • November 18, 2008 at 02:03 JohnnyRyall I was actually wondering cam you get skin that is fat and ugly…..and a stained wife beater…cause if I was there that’s what I’d want….
  • November 18, 2008 at 02:03 JohnnyRyall there’s too many beautiful people there…it needs some balancing
  • November 18, 2008 at 03:16 Kenzie =o.O= wishes to skip over the “normal” men and go for the interesting, un-normal ones (they tend to smell better)
  • November 18, 2008 at 04:34 JellyBean says hah ty myg I aim to please ya know
  • November 18, 2008 at 14:18 Silverdrake adds my 2cents that the supposedly “manly-men” in SL are really women acting out a fantasy of a stereotype.
  • November 18, 2008 at 14:21 Burgess eats drama for breakfast. Mmmm, tastes good.
  • November 18, 2008 at 14:26 Burgess says wow, you really stepped in it here, kiddo.
  • November 18, 2008 at 14:27 JellyBean says lmao did I? I think I made a statement and plurk peeps got panties in a pinch LOL
  • November 18, 2008 at 14:30 Burgess ok, you threw the grenade then -P
  • November 18, 2008 at 18:26 Bone OMG! Now you’re telling us that normal guys don’t wear panties!? I give up!
  • November 18, 2008 at 19:50 JellyBean says lol no boner, please continue to freeball. I was just informed that this plurk thread was viewed as male bashing. (rofl) Sorry, but no
  • November 18, 2008 at 19:50 JellyBean says I was not bashing males, just looking for one with certain non-traits, I guess…
  • November 18, 2008 at 19:51 JellyBean says 1. no fem av/alt
  • November 18, 2008 at 19:51 JellyBean says 2. not metro sexual and 3. is the stereotypical male
  • November 18, 2008 at 19:52 JellyBean says if you were offended, it’s not my issue that you misread, misinterpreted or turned it into something more.
  • November 18, 2008 at 19:53 JellyBean says be happy with who u are, but know that u either do or don’t fit into the category i was looking for. kkthnxbai
  • November 18, 2008 at 20:10 Burgess oh jeez, now you’re explaining and being reasonable. But I have faith that people who want drama will still misinterpret…
  • November 18, 2008 at 20:13 JellyBean says well I love drama too… trust me this plurk has me rolling with tears. I think I’ll start a new one about how it’s ok for “those” …
  • November 18, 2008 at 20:13 JellyBean says to stand up and say HERE I AM but when that’s not what I was asking for they cry and prove my exact point!

So to those that had a cow, got offended, de-friended me, or went to cry on their own thread… I never said DO NOT BE YOU! I said, you are not what I am looking for. I’d hate for someone to tell me I couldn’t have pink hair in SL because I don’t have pink hair in RL. It’s the same fucking thing. How-fucking-ever just as any employer looks for certain skills, or a modeling/acting agency looks for certain appearances, I am looking for a, and heaven forbid I use the word ‘normal’, a regular guy who possesses more gruffness and he doesn’t have to smell nice. Last time I checked SL still hasn’t become scratch-n-sniff.

That is all, thank you.

**Disclaimer and Fine Print**

None of my views represent anyone else’s views, just mine, I thought em up, I let them spew from my brain to my fingertips and I wrote them out here for you to read all by my lil bitty self. If I have pissed you off, then be pissed off at me and no one associated with me as these are my words.

Things I’d love to see in SL…

Posted in SecondLife® with tags , on July 14, 2008 by ♥JellyBean♥

Gah! Okay before I start this post, when did WordPress decide all inserted images need an alt tag? Grawr! Just wait til I buy the upgrade to re-code & revamp this mofo! Nvm… I’m over it.

Okay here are a few things I’d love to see in SL:

  • Well-made prim sandals adjusted to be carried in your hand… for like walks on the beach when you take off your shoes and curl your toes in the sand.
  • Pose to go with said sandals (animated & static – I’m greedy).
  • More dartboards.
  • The fixed version of the Iron Games Pool Table, ours is teh borked and I miss it.
  • The recreation & rebirth of the Starax Magic Wand by Light Waves.
  • Rosie, Aka & I in the same place at the same time.
  • Shiny Murlocs.
  • Hawks & I dj’ing together again one night a week.
  • Myg & Alex.
  • A big band club.
  • More stores with “New” walls at the entrance.
  • New hair at ETD & Deviant Kitties.
  • Perfect jean shorts.

I think that’s it for now. :p Okay I’m off to bed. Mwah poppets!

P.s. Hawks & I are now on Plurk… find us.

Hawks’ Plurk

Jelly’s Plurk

Life in the Carpool Lane – Personal Freedoms

Posted in Life in the Carpool Lane with tags , , on July 10, 2008 by ♥JellyBean♥